You’ve heard/read the saying, “ If bad things are always happening to you, the problem must be you!”, right? I certainly have more times than I could possibly count. Though we all must look at ourselves thoroughly and see if we actually do contribute to negative situations we are encountering; it is also important not to live this saying/phrase as a
monolith of absolute truth and clarity. We all know that there are so many trains of thought about what is and isn’t negative, and many believe we only attract what comes to us; to our benefit or demise. Though this is certainly true in some circumstances, just like the aforementioned saying—This is also not a monolith of absolute truth and clarity for everything and everyone at all times. Let me explain further…
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| A picture I took from the roof in 02/2010 when I lived in Moza Illit |
First off, I want to talk about the fallacy of negativity and positivity… How it is seen and interpreted, and how these interpretations can ultimately be mistaken for one another. Often in western culture, if you say anything that doesn’t make people smile or if you say anything that makes people feel uncomfortable; it is branded as negative. The fact that what you are saying is the truest of true doesn’t matter to most, this is especially dependent upon a persons level of emotional investment on the subject and emotional maturity in life. And yes timing, tone, and intention matter a lot; but for too many people, none of these contributing factors are essential enough for them to inconvenience their personal mirage—In season or out of season; they’d detest and decry truths being made known if they are in opposition to acknowledging them.
Some think that I am negative because I talk about things that are going on in our world in an open and honest way… Gasp! It’s not everyone, of course… It’s only some people who read my words online, that misunderstand me in this way… A tone they have wrongly imagined that I have, is attached to my font and they become angry at their own imaginings. Folks who talk to me one on one do not get that faux negative impression, because they can hear how I am saying what I am saying, and though they may not agree; they know it is from LOVE and not hate or negativity, that I speak the truths that I do ever so freely. I say the things/ideas that most are afraid to openly declare… Not for shock value, never my intention… Rather I feel these truths need to be said and I feel compelled to say them; it’s that simple for me.
I don’t wish to hurt anyone or offend, but naturally I will because let’s face it; the truth is not always easy to take in if we are dedicated to certain thought patterns. I am not influenced by any ideology or married to any groupthink enclosure, that doesn’t allow me the freedom of thinking critically within the soul whispers and heartbeat cadence that I have been given. What is actually negative is sugar-coating truth, or presenting truth and/or lies with an intention to do harm…
So really, negativity is about lies and ill intention.Positivity is about truth and correction and building.True positivity does not always feel good because it may tinge us in a way that causes us discomfort or temporary pain… Growing pains. And actual negativity can make people feel good short-term, but if it keeps them deceived or in denial; this is very bad for them and all those they have contact with. Negativity also wants to destroy with no plans of rebuilding… It rejoices in hurting others. Positivity wants to dismantle, disengage, and discombobulate any and everything that stunts growth or keeps us in bondage.
Being encouraging is often seen as purely positive, but if folks are being encouraged to not be authentic, to not critically think, to not put in hard work to become better, through the misuse of platitudes and glittering language that doesn’t challenge; is this positive or just negativity masked as positivity? Yes, there is a way that different situations need to be handled, and not every tone is appropriate for every situation. However, it’s often not the tone people get most angry with, but rather the content. It is time we reassess how we see positivity and negativity, and not use them as weapons to silence truths that need to be acknowledged and handled rightly.
BLACK People, no matter where we go in the world, we suffer from nuanced systematic racism and oppression; shape-shifting with degrees of variance. Did we attract this hatred? Is it our fault that we get followed around stores, killed by cops, and targeted for environmental racism? No, it is not. How about kids who are relentlessly bullied in school… Many of whom have never done anything to deserve any sort of bad behavior from the other kids… Is it their fault for being picked out? What about those of us who fight injustice, and have targets on our back for doing so… Are we wrong for standing up, speaking out, being willing? Is it our fault that this actual negativity comes to us?
Look at nature, one of our greatest teachers… There are several scientific theories as to why some insects are drawn to light— All surrounding the insects need for that light to help it navigate in the dark, or for other life-sustaining reasons. So many times I hear and read theories/ideals about a person attracting negative people/experiences, without these theories/ideals acknowledging that some do so, simply because they have a bright light inside of them. We all know the saying about moths being drawn to a flame… Do we ever consider it to be the flames fault that the moth can’t stay away? I’ve never heard anyone blame the flame in a snarky way for the moths attraction… I’ve never heard anyone say, “Well it’s the flames fault for burning so bright.” Yet with people, we easily accept rhetoric telling us, without question, that it is always the light bearing humans fault… How did we even get here? Like I said previous, personal responsibility is paramount to me, I asses myself a lot… I know that certain things are in my control and to my fault, and some things just aren’t.
For example, I have been in a few bad relationships in the past… Dudes who hid their true nature at the first, but then after I was “all in”; they became life-draining. They would always comment about their “love/like” for me stemming from their perception of me being “ a good person” or the fact that my energy made them feel good, etc. It wasn’t my fault they were attracted to my light, but it was definitely my fault that I stayed as long as I did when they started to treat me in accordance with their true nature. The thing is, humans with an internal illumination in them will attract good and bad people… Most people in this life mean us no good, and some people are truly our tribe. Some people want to see us do great things, and rejoice in our triumphs, and some people want to be close with us just so they can try to dim our light whenever they get a chance. The key is to know who is around us, and this may not always be apparent at first. What time and experience has shown me, is to not ignore my uneasy feelings without exploring them to see if they have merit, and seek guidance from SPIRIT if a particular person(s) should be in my life or not.
If you are a very spiritually in tune person, an empath… Or just energetically sensitive in any way, you have to be proactive in how you protect yourself from people who wish you ill. Protection is very important for people like us… Not only do we have a light that attracts all sorts of people, we have a natural inclination of compassion which is uber great… However, compassion’s siamese twin is forbearance, and forbearance must be metered out wisely; something I am still learning to master.
A good thing about me being sensitive to energy is that I pick up on energetic attacks people try to send my way, usually right away, but sometimes I am totally thrown off guard. In every instance I have been thrown off guard, when I look back on it, I realize that compassion and forbearance had delayed me in seeing the darts being thrown at me—There were warnings I didn’t engage. For me, I am not trying to be super close to everyone… I only seek closeness with those who I am supposed to be close with. Still, many people in this life… I see them as cool folks that I interact with for various reasons, and on different levels. Sometimes I think some have the potential to be more than associates, and develop into actual friendships… So maybe, I skew my perception a bit, because everyone, including myself, has flaws… I don’t like to write people off right away.
What I have come to realize over the years, is that my gut feeling is never wrong, and every time I have ignored it; I always regret that I did. A few blog posts ago, I talked about energy, and how we can sometimes misread situations or people because of our own insecurities. I guess underestimating your inner knowing is on the other side of the same spectrum. It’s when clues are present, or straight up warning inclinations; but they get dismissed. This is why it is important to know yourself, know how you receive messages, be observant. It’s about staying open to truth, and listening to the guidance.
There are many ways people try to attack us outside of the physical realm. This is a subject that many won’t delve too deeply into, but it is imperative to understand. We all have energy, and whatever we join our energy to, whether good or bad; it becomes empowered. We all talk about the power of prayers and mediations and affirmations… Do we believe it though? Do we know just how powerful our words and thoughts are to ourselves and other people? Do we know that hatred doesn’t have to be spoken to be felt by the person it is directed at? Do we know that if we tell a person that they are nothing long enough, if they are not careful and protecting themselves; they may just start to believe it… I think most of us do know all of this, but sometimes we fail to acknowledge its importance in our everyday lives and interactions.
Last night, I observed someone I thought I was pretty cool with on Twitter subtweeting me…Truth is I had been letting it go because I really didn’t think it was directed at me for the longest time… The things this person was saying was not me or my character, so I was not pressed. You see, knowing yourself and your worth is one level of protection, but at the same time I didn’t see I was being attacked until a huge clue was dropped in my lap.😉
Anyway, this individual had been doing it for a long time, now that I look back on it. I had been getting a weird vibe from this person for a while, but I just let it go; didn’t think much of it. Like I said, the name calling and content of the disses were so off from my personage, I didn’t recognize their passive aggressive onslaught and negative energy darts were meant for me. Now, I thought this person was cool enough with me to tell me if they had a problem with me, but I guess not. Then I started to recall other times I dismissed their subtweets, because like I said, they didn’t apply to me so I didn’t think they were for me… But now I see this person had been subtweeting me for a long time, and the content shows that they have a lot of hatred and insecurity about me in their being. If you are mad because I speak out, and speak truth… What am I supposed to do about that? If I have offended you, whether you have a right to be or not, why haven’t you talked to me about it? Am I supposed to wallow in sorrow? Am I supposed to lose myself esteem? Not me, not ever!
Apparently this person thinks that I am “basic” and that I have no right to speak on things I know about, and I can’t tell our people shit… I mean, you can feel how you want to feel about me, and I will always have a right to speak and share my experiences from the work I do with people in my community. I’m not on any social media platform for likes and retweets, I don’t buy followers… I am ok if you want to unfollow me… Like, please do you. I guess this person feels I should shut-up my anti-establishment views, which they embrace. Twitter is filled with people speaking their views, so why do I have to shut-up? Why am I the bad one and not all the others who speak out just like I do? I have not just started speaking out against the system… I always have…So when did you change is the question and why? It’s interesting.
One thing about me is that I know my worth is high, and I know that I am a dope ass chick. If you have confidence, other people who don’t have any yet want to tear yours down… I guess this individual also doesn’t like that I promote my work in its various forms… I don’t promote my work 24-7, many would say I under promote all that I do, but when I do share it, I have every right to do so… Everyone shares what they do on social media, why wouldn’t I or anyone else use social media for that purpose?
I am not hurt or phased, but a bit taken aback… I only bring it up because it is a perfect example of what I am talking about when it comes to protecting our energy, and the many ways people can attack us. I know that many of you who are reading this post can totally relate to what I am saying, so this is an important conversation starter. What this individual is doing is sending out actual negative energy that I can actually feel/pick up on. Didn’t address me directly, but wanted to hide their hand; hence the passive aggressive tweets toward me when I am tweeting what is in my heart and my head.
As I said previous, had this person came to me and told me they had a problem with me, I‘d be willing to discuss it with them. But nah, this person wanted me to feel inferior, to stop speaking out, and to believe untrue things about myself, in order to make themselves feel better… Called me names that don’t even apply to me or my character; which is why I didn’t get that their onslaught had me as the target for the longest. Truly, any derogatory name or diss someone hurls at you or me; these are just reflections of their inward nature—This I know. This person was hoping I’d pick up on it and ingest some of their inward poison in the process… Oh, I picked up on it eventually, but no poison in my system.😉
Other ways people send out bad energy for us that we may not be aware of is: When they speak curses/prayers over us in their hearts, when they try to get others to dislike us through lies and deception, and when they watch our every move; hoping for us to fall or have something bad happen in which they can rejoice. Some overtly send out hateful energy, and don’t mind us knowing it is from them… Most are too cowardly and know they are wrong so they work on the sly… Many times even pretending to like us. All of this energy is moving about, and it is important to be aware of it, and protect ourselves from it… And though the universe rewards everyone for what they put out; good or bad… We can be proactive in making sure darts thrown at us hit an impenetrable wall; so that they go right back from whence they came.
You know the funny thing is, a lot of people who send out these sort of “curses” are usually church folk of some sort; not always though… Anyone can and will participate in this actual negativity. Folks who are always talking about the evils of witchcraft, yet are participating on the dark side of it themselves. Not all church folk are the same, but there are an abounding amount of dark hearted ones out here sending out bad energy for folks, and hoping bad for people who don’t believe what they believe, whilst thinking they are so saved and everybody else is hell bound… Especially those who hate anyone dare to speak out about the wrongs their pastors have done to people ( e.g. Eddie Long). It can be a very vicious thing… This hatred they conjure. I have these types try to dart me a lot; but it doesn’t work.😉
Protection-Protection-Protection… How do we protect ourselves from actual negative energy people send our way, because they hate us or the truths we speak… Who are jealous of what we are and can do… Who just wish bad things for us… How do we protect ourselves? Here are a few helpful tips:
- Be in good standing with the CREATOR & the Ancestors. A lot of times, I am protected from so many things seen and unseen simply because I have favor. Many forces protecting me… I listen, seek out SPIRIT… I feel I am rewarded with warnings and guidance, blessings and breaths… Very helpful in navigating this life.
- Find subtle or overt ways to let those sending bad energy/wishing you harm know, that you are aware of what they are doing, and that it is not working—Because it truthfully isn’t. Let them know they are caught. This works for me a lot, because people wonder how I know and they in turn get scared. If they are sneakily doing it, which is most of the time, I usually place a notice somewhere that I know they will see it. When I do this, I usually feel their attention shift off of me, even if just temporary.
- Pray prayers of protection and prayers of repelling of evil over yourself everyday and when you feel attacked… Use your energy to send that negative energy right back to the sender, and pray that you and others around you be protected as well from it coming against you again. Pray to be protected from any and every plan or onslaught before it even reaches you… Be proactive.
- Stop tolerating people who don’t cheer for you when you win, or encourage you when you are down. If you have a bunch of people like that around you, get rid of all of them. These are the types that want what’s bad for you, and you may be picking up on that energy, unaware… Cleanse it from amongst you; you are worthy… You are sacred!
- Be wise… These types of situations do not need revenge cycles. Speak life and affirmation, prayers of protection and binding over yourself; that’s all you need to do to redirect the energy darts track in these situations. You should also pray that the person gains in their self-esteem or whatever else you discern they lack; causing them to wish you ill. Trust and know, that if you begin to have a mindset that wants to send bad energy because it was sent to you, you will get into a truly negative cycle. Simply return to sender what is sent to you& protect yourself. The Universe has plans for the person; don’t interfere.
- Don’t allow anyone to hinder you… Do not allow others insecurities stop you from being who you are supposed to be, speaking truths, rejoicing in your triumphs, sharing your artistry… Keep doing what you are supposed to and it will go well with you.
In Unashamed Négritude & Revolutionary Love,
ORIT
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