Compassion and when the Virtue Leaves our Hands: The Healing Work Needed for BLACK Liberation to Actualize.

BLACK People… Those of us in Northern Amerikkka, those of us in Southern & Central Amerikkka, those of us in Europe, Oceania, Asia and those of us still on the mother continent of Alkebulan (Africa) from which we all originate—We who have original flowing through our veins; we are in need of miracle(s)…Just to psychologically break free from every chain clinching our necks, wrists, and ankles due to oppression… Impeding our various attempts at an all encompassing liberation. Quite frankly, we need individual and collective inward miracles just to have the vision, clarity, and determination to regain parts of our souls that have been lost: The Ancestral DNA  that we carry, and the weight and trauma of our current living on this planet… We need healing.

A similarity that I find throughout the various ethnicities and cultures of BLACKNESS throughout the planet; we seem to share similar internalization of the toxicity of oppression from colonialism & systematic oppression in nuance. Mostly from europeans of course, though NBPOC (Non-BLACK People of Color) have had their turns at oppressing various BLACK Peoples as well.

An example of NBPOC oppression? Right now as I type, the Indonesian colonization, genocide, & land grab of West Paupa and her beautiful indigenous BLACK/AFRICAN Peoples(Melanesians), has increased in its intensity. The world is silent, and the United Nations is culpable in many ways. I have been learning a lot about the West Papuan Freedom Struggle the past 50 years, firsthand from a Papuan; right now the situation is intensifying. To learn more about the West Papuan struggle, and how you can raise awareness/pressure on their behalf, please follow: @PurePapua  on Twitter. He is a BLACK Indigenous West Papuan, who has had family killed by this Indonesian Regime, and he is a frontline freedom fighter in their struggle. He can really detail to you more of what has happened, and what is happening still.

There is an increasing number of self aggrandizing scholarly BLACK Folk, who love to argue that BLACK struggle in Amerikkka cannot be compared for similarities; to that of other BLACK Peoples and Nations and Struggles throughout the globe. I repudiate that anyone could push this, but then I realize that some, no matter where they received their degrees, or what letters are behind their name; a good number have little experience &/or sensitivity to the people they claim expertise over. I also know some scholarly BLACK Folks who haven’t been many places/had many experiences, yet they still have the ability to see deeper and go deeper than many of their peers. Then I know some who have been places/had experiences, but were/are too arrogant to accept the truth of the people living right in front of them, in order to stay true to what they want to believe and put out into the world. Then there are the rare experienced, knowledgeable, and humble BLACK Scholars that are truly treasures… They not only know how to teach, they also know how to listen and relearn. They create newness where it is needed, and care about truth over career advancement or academic politics. They are radical thinkers and doers, motivated from a deep love.

So what’s the difference between these Four? Eurocentrized academia’s degree of hold on the psyche is the difference. Eurocentrized academia becomes the religion of some BLACK Scholars, and instead of learning it whilst still thinking for themselves; many resign to eurocentric thought as the highest truth, which leads to misinformation and visionless declarations for BLACK Communities…Why do those hinged to eurocentrized academia become the voices of our people? Because these type of BLACK Scholars speak in the language and accepted theories, that the oppressor falsely associates with intelligence and “good knee-growisms.” Also, many in our community use this same oppressive logic, as a bar of legitimacy—Associating seeming acceptance through these eurocentrized BLACK Scholars, with progress against systematic oppression, and rightful analysis about BLACK Communities.

BLACK Scholars who try to sell the idea that the reality of white supremacy, european colonization, and systematic oppression on BLACK People(s) isn’t intertwined globally; this is due to their eurocentrized theories that they have based their entire life in academia, and their own sense of self legitimacy around. Folks want money, prestige and will compromise in any way to get it. Some are afraid they’ll be blackballed or not get tenure if they go against the grain. I get it…Why it happens and why some feel pressured to compromise. Me getting “the why” does not make it any less prideful, and the wrong type of circular—It harms and stagnates not just them, but the community.

I have engaged folks who are so married to theories with gaping holes in them, and to their unbalanced ego; because they have based their come up and/or reputation around said theories—Things I can say with certainty, that were missing important pieces, or that were just dead ass wrong; since I am a person who had experienced said issue first hand. Pride won’t allow eurocentrized BLACK Scholars to admit they are wrong or hear anyone out; they want robotic yes people who blindly accept what they dish out. Too many folks who pride themselves on being scholarly are so colonized in their thinking, that I have seen many  turn their nose up at brilliant minds who did not go through their mode of education, or who do not (whether purposely or through not being acquainted) speak the current pop verbiage of the moment.

Being “in” with popular academic thought as the primary goal; this is detrimental to individual and collective soul health of BLACK Peoples. Often scholarly folks who are too afraid to even engage the people on a face to face, day to day basis; they are oft chosen as spokespeople for the people they study from afar which is problematic AF—This does not help at all. These same arrogant eurocentrized BLACK scholars come with their theories, and spread them as the voice and experience of the people they haven’t gotten to know. Instead of humbling themselves and asking the community if they would like to speak on their own behalf… Instead humbling themselves by allowing someone from the community who lives the experiences to be taken to speak their truth in various settings/venues when they receive the opportunity… Instead of humbling themselves by deferring to the lived expertise of the community members themselves; these eurocentrized BLACK scholars choose to mute truth in order to amplify ego… Their ego.

The weird and sadly comical thing is this; many others and myself have been institutionally educated as well. They are not the only ones, but they operate as if they are; especially if you think outside the box and refuse to be in a polygamous situation; by also being married to eurocentrized academia. 

Folks assume a lot… And you know what they say about assumptions. One of the worst presumptions I know of is this idiotic idea that those who weren’t institutionally educated, don’t know as much/not as intellectual as those who were; which is elitist and just plain ignorant! This colonized way of thinking is stifling to our collective growth and transcendence. There are so many ways to become educated, scholarly, intellectually fluid. And do not mistake my purpose in saying all of this, and miss what I am purposely chiseling away at… Reading and study is crucial for ALL of our people. What I am attacking is snobbery and eurocentrized thought being applied to Pan-African problems as the goto refuge. I am challenging how we think, how we see one another, how we receive information and apply that information to our communities… I am encouraging and doing my part to break the fallow ground in our individual and collective subconscious, so that we can begin to plant seeds that will grow into healing plants… Healing, yes healing.

I’ve mentioned to you a few times that I am a healer and warrioress, but how so? Well, for me it means that my hands warm up like a space heater at times… When this happens I can touch folks and they physically, emotionally, and/or spiritually realign/release what is weighing them down. For me, healing also means that I serve people… Aiding them holistically… From physical to spiritual needs; seeing what they need even if they don’t know how to ask. For me healing also means that I intercede on behalf of others, tap into SPIRIT so holy, and be a conduit willing to send more of what is needed; even from far away. For me, healing also means healing myself, recharging myself, loving myself…Taking time to introspect and clean up myself, so that I can be of service to others and become a better human. Healing, no matter in which way it must be done or needs to come through; healing means listening and healing means compassion.

I remember reading about Yeshua’s compassion and miracles. I don’t think there was one miracle that is written about that he was not first moved by compassion. “And the whole multitude sought to touch him: for there went virtue(power) out of him, and healed them all.” This is so powerful and relatable to me.Think about it! Perhaps you are a healer and can relate to how you feel, energy wise, after you have given of that purified energy within you. Imagine having so much compassion in you, not contrived, not turned on or off, but just a state of being where people could be affected for the good; just by being in your presence, or by shaking your hand. I know this is possible, because there are folks who do have that affect on people… Even when they are not popular or even liked by some.

Stubbornly religious folks don’t like me, and maybe that is how it should be… I’m a very unorthodox, and high Truth as it is revealed to me, is a continual happening in my life—I am forever learning and know so little; continually relearning and sometimes it is a bit nerve racking… Expanding… Growing…Evolving. Moving in and being open to SPIRIT is my main rule.

Some of the work I do in my community makes me sometimes have to be around a lot of Western Christians, who happen to have zero tolerance for folks unlike themselves. Sometimes it makes me want to quit, and maybe I will reassign myself one day soon from this one area I am involved when the time is right *smile*, but first let me tell you what they hate most about me: They see Light in me, they see how I deal with folks in our community and the patience I exude…This bothers them because I am not of their grouping… I am not good enough in their eyes. No discernment, just petty assumptions.

I’ve witnessed them showing nasty attitudes with folks we are serving, and bringing those “churchy attitudes” into the space…You know the attitudes not of SPIRIT that make people feel unwelcome and unloved… Detrimental type shit, yeah that. I’ve overheard them whispering about whether I was a Muslim because I’m always wearing head wraps…What African Women don’t wear head wraps? *rolls eyes* Just really ignorant ass Ohio stuff. We have some really willfully ignorant people here… The kind that think protest is violent and hateful and against Dr. King, and that speaking out against tyranny is violent…Ugh! Folks who think radical, and the fact that I am so, is some sort of sin. It’s kinda depressing living here…For real. And by the way, If I were Muslimah, I’d be proud to be and should feel welcome in a space where we’re SERVING and building the community, right? My community has so many different BLACK cultures, yet the ignorance is sky high… It’s baffling. And let’s not even talk about how they have already chased away some Muslims who used to come out to serve and build. Yeshua was not like this, but these particular Christians ( p.s. I actually do know some very nice & spiritual Christians by the way) swear they are the only ones who can represent Him *blank stare* SMDH!  Truth be told, all of these religions out here… So far away from the original teachings…Who told any of us to form religions? Spirituality is a way of life, religion is a way of stagnation. I wonder, when did human rules become sins to the CREATOR? 🤔

These particular folks see how people I have never met are drawn to me, and they think that shouldn’t be because I don’t speak their brand of verbiage and religiosity. I live my Spirituality; I don’t turn it off and on like a light switch. Some of these particular folks just watch me with nasty looks on their faces, while my light and healing vibe continue to exude, ‘cause I ain’t no punk, nor am I shook. Truthfully though, sometimes it does bother me, because I am quietly doing my part and folks are so hateful. I have feelings; I’m not made of stone. I guess I’m a stumbling block to certain types of people. Let’s be honest: I’m blunt AF, I speak truths no one sleep walking wants to hear, I am different, I have gifts/talents, I’m cute, I’m intelligent, I’m confident and hold me head up high…I have a low tolerance for bullshit, I don’t conform to the crowd or groupthink, I don’t brown nose or pretend to like folks that I don’t… I’m a nightmare for most people, I get it…LMAO. And of all my beautiful qualities that I didn’t name, these qualities that I did name are stumbling blocks…Even when I am not saying a word… Go figure!

Thing is, I have confronted some folks who treat me bad, asking them if I have done anything to offend them because I truly am ready to listen. They always say no, yet still treat me like shit. Can y’all explain that…What is that?  Ok, yes, I speak my mind plainly but I also listen. Anyone who has a problem with me can come to me; I’d be happy to hear and amend where necessary. Thing is, no one ever does… Like ever. I look at myself anyway, sometimes too much…. Rehearsing what I did, what I said, if I was wrong…If I see I misstepped, I’ll be the first to admit and amend. I would say I am bothered by folks unexplained vitriol like 8% of the time, but for the other 92% of the time, my Libra Instinct kicks in and I just be straight peaceful in “I don’t give a fuck land.” It’s not that I don’t care about folks, because I’m filled with compassion… Its just that I know my place, I know that kicking up fallow ground is part of who I am, I know most won’t like me all of the time…So, I just bask in the calm assurance that I am comforted with, when I know I have indeed done/been what I am supposed to be/do. Whenever I am out of line in some way, I can’t rest until I make things right.

So, yes I get under the skin of certain types of people; it’s supposed to be…The Universe uses so many things including people, to help us see things about ourselves. Being so sensitive to energy, I pick up on every negative energetic dart anyone attempts to send my way; every single one, both online and offline…Near or far. You don’t have to be anywhere near me for me to know you are trying to send bad intention my way, which is a blessing so that I can protect myself, and I always do😉. Protect and replenish is essential repetition in the life of healers. 

Having negative energy sent toward me that I have to continually block, whilst trying to listen inwardly so I might attend to people the right way…It’s daunting. These particular folks I mentioned previous from my community are BLACK People, by the way. This situation is a very good example of what we need to amend in our communities, in order to truly get a grasp on a more all encompassing liberation. Imagine if others and myself felt compassion from them, instead of fear and vitriol and snootiness… We’d be unstoppable.

Compassion… It is impossible to make anything authentic happen without it. We can’t be used for the betterment of our communities without true compassion. Compassion is an empathetic love, that facilitates miracles and the desire to heal and be healed. Compassion is that juice… That virtue (power)… That purified energy that is moving from SPIRIT into us to do great works, so that we can meet the needs of the people and ourselves. Compassion equips us in ways we didn’t think we were able, and it gives us Divine understanding into things that affect the lives of others in our community. It’s is the key to a unity that will undoubtedly link us from soul to soul… It will open us up to current conversations of the Ancestors, and humble us all at the same time. What would be impossible for us if we all developed compassion? I dare say nothing!

So how does one develop compassion? You have to want to be a being who wants to begin the journey of being better in every way… This means tapping into SPIRIT. We all need to tap into that speck of THE ONE, THE CREATOR that we all are…Using that speck to guide us to rays; thereby opening up clearer and clearer channels of knowing and guidance.

Something most folks don’t know about me is that a long time ago, I spent a lot of time in solitude and seclusion; tapping into THE ALL THAT IS. This initial tapping in initiated and has led my journey these last almost 14 years. Every level of revelation comes with tests…Unbelievably hard, tiresome; yet awesome. Sometimes I am in awe that I am still here and sound. Tests also come with miracles that deliver to safety when they subside. The compassion and virtue continue to become more and more strengthened, as inward growth inside of us marches onward. Our suffering and tough cultivating experiences ironically empower us to help others from a pure place, and ourselves when its time.

All of this happens according to our life path, Ori(destiny), and work we must accomplish while in this realm of things, in this form. I don’t know what to say if you are not at all spiritual, and think what I am saying is crazy—Just know that you are still welcome here. I could never deny what I have seen and experienced. I can’t pretend I have not been touched by the Divine; remembrance. I cannot pretend that being introduced and accepting of Yeshua has not been dope for me, and because the reality of Him that I have come to know and love, is not the reality of the expression most claim; I can’t along go with popular thought on the subject. I cannot pretend that I haven’t had dreams, open visions, and visitations. I cannot pretend I can’t see past the physical, and tap into divine messages. I cannot pretend I do not understand the Orisha and other Beings… I cannot pretend that Ha Moedim (The Appointed Times) don’t keep me steady and in tune… SPIRIT, she…Yes SHE is all encompassing and I am one with HER. I cannot pretend that THE MOST HIGH is all masculine, when I know THE MOST HIGH is also all feminine. And none of this…NONE OF THIS AT ALL IS A CONTRADICTION. There are no contradictions in the bottomless.

Without my journey being as it has been, I don’t think I would be as developed in my compassion… I don’t think the virtue would leave my hands when it needs to do so. I don’t think I’d be moved to see people and nurture their right now and long term needs. I don’t think I’d be sensitive to peoples pain and suffering. I had to be humbled, and I had to want to be better than I was… I was put in many cultivating experiences to make that happen, and authenticate compassion in me; I can really take no credit but to say… I am still willing, growing, evolving, learning. 

I have to choose everyday… Choose to listen and obey what I know I should do, even when I don’t want to do it. I stumble over my self sometimes, but I get back up. I had to learn and still continue to learn discipline and determination… I get weary, I get fed up with folks and myself; sometimes I need to be and sometimes not. 

So the best way that I can ascertain thus far; to unify and liberate our people on every level… Folks gotta be willing to begin the journey of glowing up from the inside. The Universe will set each person up with everything/experience needed to truly be internally golden, and begin the life long journey of self mastery and betterment. The more we become beings of Light, the more compassion will be in us, so that when we see our brother or sister; we won’t see them with the same eyes we once did…We will be able to have that empathizing love, that virtue(power) emulating from us in such a way that our very presence heals, in every way, everything that needs to be transformed. We are our own liberation if we will do the work inside ourselves to be miracles to our people… It’s time.

^{In Unashamed Négritude & Revolutionary Love,}

^ORIT

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~When Energy Discernment RawDogs Accidental Celibacy~

ORIT

I’m sitting here sipping coffee strong enough to salute my Ethiopian Heritage, whilst signaling the invigorating bluish-green jazz notes of my African living in Amerikkka(African-American) tradition; they unapologetically fuse into my current reality on this side of life. I am uber chill right now, relaxed… Listening to Les Nubians, Indie Arie, Floetry, Dwele and other like-vibe gods and goddesses in Neosoul & R&B frequency; adjusting the volume ever so slightly, so that I can listen to my thoughts as they hit the laptop screen. I must admit, smooth jams like these have me a bit distracted… But  don’t worry, I will now zero in on our current convo via the written word, from my heart to yours. I too want to explore what’s going on inside of me—Thoughts and feelings and convictions that I will sincerely visit as I write.

I enjoy blogging because it allows me to visit the roundabouts in my own mind; that I usually don’t make the time to thoughtfully entertain, in the hustle and bustle of everyday life. Blogging allows me to share with you and myself in an authentic way; I don’t censor what wants to flow out, I tell important truths, I share strategy, I illuminate missed perspectives; hopefully this authentic working of words and messages and truths aids you in your journey, as the process certainly aids me in my own trek, on this thing we call a life.

So, let’s get right to it… I have been accidentally celibate since 2010. I am not a saint, I am not a guru, I am not an extraordinary person possessing something that can’t be cultivated in any willing individual. Yes, it has almost been 7 years since I’ve had “carnal knowledge” with another…LOL—And I truly did not intend for this to happen this way, or for this long…Like, really Universe? 

So… Am I doing this for spiritual reasons? Yes, I AM… But not in the way you may think. My celibacy is accidental because celibacy wasn’t the goal; but rather deciphering who I should be with based off: Discerning the energy between myself and another, the purpose, and if its time…That was/is the focus. I did not ever say to myself: I am not having sex again until I get married. I did however say to myself: I cannot afford to exchange energy with Maliciously Low-Vibing folk, and then become tied/entrapped to it in compromising ways. I chose this as an act of self love and soul nourishment… Preservation and healing… A  fence that always makes me tune myself into the WISDOM of SPIRIT, before I open the gate. Of course, to realize that this way of looking at myself in relation to my Divine Feminine, sexual and intimate energies; I had to experience the great pain and struggle of being ensnared with those I was not supposed to be exchanging energy with in the first place—Had I heeded the warnings.

Maliciously Low-Vibing Energy does not let go of its prey easily, so avoiding it is one of the keys to attempting to stay as balanced as possible. This is why I understand sex after marriage is an ideal concept in some ways, but it lacks depth and focus on energy discernment. Focusing on being careful about the energy we are exchanging with others; this will open us up to our inner leading and SPIRIT, and it will also open us up to the other less explored reasons and needs to powerfully exchange energy in a sexual &/or intimate way. It will cause us to pay attention to early signs in people, that we oft allow ourselves to overlook, because we want what we want when we want it. Energy discernment will also prevent us, if we will discipline ourselves in this way, from a lot of heartache. I didn’t say it wouldn’t be challenging…I am, by nature, a very sensual person so I get it’s challenging. I’ve just realized, through experience, that my peace and preservation of my being, is far more important than a good fuck.

I know many religions push waiting for marriage for sex, and I am not saying this is bad at all; though few accomplish it. I would like to be married one day, but marriage does not set the standard on this topic for me, which I will further explore as we continue. Some who are burdened with having to remain virginal, even go so far as to only do anal sex before marriage, or have a plastic surgeon make them a new hymen in order to keep up with “virginal appearances.” If marriage leaves out the discernment of energy health and compatibility, what are we really dealing with here? *sips coffee* 

I do think that many just don’t understand how the CREATOR sees sexuality, intimacy, and sensuality; because of the indoctrination of human biases, and the refusal to study for oneself. Just look at, for example, the burden of “honor” being placed solely upon women and girls… Just look at, for example, the limited perspectives folks have about the many amazing reasons that sex and intimacy is here for us to utilize, and to enjoy outside of just procreation. Also, many people do not acknowledge that a lot of what they believe in relation to religion and sex; is based off of European influences, misogyny, and purposeful mistranslations. Religions stemming from the Tanakh(The Bible) come from culture(s) that are absolutely NOT European. Yet the European version is what prevails and miseducates in many ways. 

There is no Hebrew word for fornication, only adultery. Fornication is a Greek/Christian concept. In those ancient days, if a man had sex with a woman who he had not gone through the formal betrothal process with, he would have to pay a fine to her father, and take the girl as a wife or concubine. Ancient Hebraic Women did have the right during the official betrothal ceremony only, to agree to the marriage and to make demands that would be placed in a marriage contract (Ketubah). If a man raped or had sex with a girl outside of there being an official agreement, she was obligated to marry the man without the benefit of negotiations. Yes, there were wedding celebrations—7 day feasts, but the marriage was considered complete only when the cloth with the woman’s hymen blood was waved before the people to prove she was a virgin…Cute, right?(that was sarcasm)

Let’s explore this a bit further in the story of Ya’acov, Rachel & Lay’ah—A Threesome of sorts. Ya’acov(Jacob) loved Rachel and wanted to marry her, and her father verbally agreed to this. Problem is, Rachel was younger than her sister Lay’ah(Leah), and older sisters married first in their culture. So their father Laban tricked Jacob on their wedding night, and made Lay’ah(who was veiled according to tradition) actually sneak in Rachel’s place. Jacob didn’t realize he had sexed the wrong sister until the light of morning. His having sex with Lay’ah made them legally married.

Jacob did not love Lay’ah, but was now legally obligated to her. Eventually Laban let Jacob marry Rachel too… The one Jacob was most in sync with, the one he loved, the one he was energetically in tuned with. Jacob and Rachel had a totally complimentary exchange in energy, desire, purpose…But Lay’ah, she wasn’t loved. Think what that was like for her. They were “married” legally…She was the first wife with the most benefits in the natural, but realistically and spiritually, Lay’ah was in the worst situation. I imagine that every time Jacob went to exchange energy with her during sex, his disdain for her reenergized itself throughout her entire being. He slept with her out of obligation. This had to be super toxic. 

The story tells us that the only solace that Lay’ah had, was that she was blessed with fertility. Rachel, the most loved one, struggled in this area. Eventually though, Rachel did have two children, and she was happy and blessed because she was loved by their husband whether she gave birth( a very important thing in those times) or not. Jacob even favored Rachel’s children above the children Lay’ah gave him. Can you imagine being in such a situation? Think of all the healing and pleasure Lay’ah never experienced through sex, and the lack of intimacy she must have craved. Think of all of Lay’ah’s inward trauma having to lose her virginity in such a tricky way— I truly shutter. Every time Jacob entered Lay’ahs sacred temple, she took on his hatred in energetic form…Can you imagine? Lay’ah had no choice, but most of us do. I say “most” because there are still women and girls being forced into marriages in 2017…May they be freed from this torment—Ashe’! 

Most of us are able to, without outside influence; discern who we should be entangled with, and we should not be entangled with. We can discern what is best and most compatible with our inner Divine, and what is not if we so choose. Funny thing is, many times we choose to be Lay’ah ( no matter gender/orientation) for so many reasons; mostly stemming from insecurity, fear of being alone, and just wanting to have some sex that physically satisfies; even if it spiritually diminishes. There doesn’t even have to be third party complicating things like the one in the story. It could just be that we are compromising our inward sacred to temporarily fill a hole within us—Settling until we find who is truly meant for us to exchange energy with, not realizing we’re dwindling our own self esteem every time we go against this inner unction and warning to not proceed.

But say, let’s not get it twisted… Many people marry the wrong somebody because they are not paying attention to the vibrational signs being sent on every level. This happens in non-marriage romantic relationships as well. Yes beloved, being married will not automatically save us  from the wrong energy exchange… People get with &/or marry the wrong somebody everyday; sometimes a few different wrong somebodies in a lifetime. No shade, but what if we paid closer attention in the beginning to our intuition, and believed the energy coming from the other person when it presented itself—Whether it is compatible, vampire-ish, or in need of a bridge before intimate exchange can occur…What if? What if a relationship didn’t last,YET there was inward evidence in both souls, that it was the right exchange for the time that it was, and that going separate ways in goodwill is the fruit of that shared truth? What if??? This is why I feel we shouldn’t use marriage as the marker of doing it “right” in this area…There is so much more required.

I have found that I have to be careful in my energy exchange, in sexual and intimate situations…Both can get me caught up in all the wrong ways if I am not taking in everything I am being shown. You don’t have to physically touch someone to touch their soul or exchange your energy wth them. Romantic intimacy has many levels and expressions, and on its deeper levels, it can be mind blowing.

Look, I had a situation that woke me up to this realization about energy discernment, and my carelessness of it. I was in a situation where the man I loved with my whole heart and I were deeply intimate but not sexual…The intimacy was the strongest I have ever experienced, yet the energy exchange was very very off. It wasn’t until much later that I realized that the energy he was exchanging with me was l Maliciously Low-Vibing… So low-vibing that is was detrimental for me to take in. Sometimes you may not realize that is what is happening, but it is all the same. Exchanging with Maliciously Low-Vibing Energy left me feeling depleted, sad, lonely, and vibrationally disempowered.

Focusing on energy discernment; this is more thorough to me because it will prevent me from going too deep with the wrong people. Sex and intimacy with another soul has many beautiful reasons and benefits; which is why I find high truth in being careful with whom I exchange energy with. In the same way certain men have sperm that will throw of the ph of certain women’s vagina; so it is with certain energies being exchanged with your own; different ones will affect you differently and its imperative to pay attention from the beginning to avoid unnecessary trouble and heartache.

So you may be wondering what exactly is Maliciously Low-Vibing Energy? I mean none of us are flawless, right? True, none of us are flawless, and we all have places we don’t vibe our highest; that doesn’t mean you or I am an overall Maliciously Low-Vibing Person. Maliciously Low-vibers are different in that they are so energetically in disarray, and spiritually and mentally clogged up; their overall energy is toxic enough to change another’s inward frequency for the worse; feeding off the higher vibe which is probably what attracted them in the first place. It’s a selfish energy that is incapable of truly loving. Low-Vibers usually manifest by way of: Your gas lighters, your clandestine manipulators, your passive aggressive’s, your blatantly aggressive’s, your abusers, and your control freaks. Pay attention to what they say and do from the beginning; don’t discount what they show you. These are not people you want to exchange powerful intimate energies with… Trust me, I’ve learned this the hard way.

The exchange in sexual &/or intimate situations should be energetically mutually beneficial, even if in different ways. Even if a partner is needing a sexual/intimate healing experience centered around them at certain times; vampiring will not occur…Even if one partner is giving more in particular situations because their partner is in a low place or needing more from them; vampiring will not occur. Maliciously Low-Vibers will become energized from exchanges, and leave the other person in complete disarray, whilst not caring they’ve done so. Maliciously Low-Vibers are not to be confused with normal differences folks have in relationships… You will fight and fall out sometimes with a soul mate even, but its should never be a selfish/vampire type affect on just you. If you are a mostly higher frequency individual, and exchange energy with a Maliciously Low-Viber, you will catch some of their toxicity; which may manifest in you differently that it does in them. It may seemingly have a more severe affect on you than it does them. If not aware that this is a thing, it can start a cycle of miserable that leaves you undone and out of balance long after you finally break free.

So check this out, I have also had a sexual experience with someone that was for healing purposes… It was meant to be, it had to happen… It just wasn’t a long term relationship… It wasn't supposed to be. It had a purpose, a season. The exchange of energy left both of us in a better place holistically, and it was Divine. These complexities in my experiences has taught me so very much about energy, timing, listening, openness, and heeding warnings when they are blatantly waving in my face.

It’s been so long, as I stated at the beginning of this blog, since I have engaged sexually or intimately with someone, simply because I have not met anyone who has been worthy of the experience, and I am ok with that… I am not going crazy in the wait, if that is what you’re wondering.  When the times comes, it comes. I very much want my life partner, I feel that may be up next, but I will be very discerning and pay attention when it manifests… Like I said, I had no idea that there would be such a gap, such an elongated celibacy…I believe that SPIRIT knows why, and I am thankful to see that self mastery in this area is possible. I’m tired of it though, real talk… I’m ready for deep intimacy. I also feel like because this has been what I have had to endure, I am protected in a way—I don’t have a lot temptations coming my way, which helps… Anything less than soul nourishing exchange is not good for me, so I am enough for now. This could change so quickly or maybe not…It just depends on destiny and appointed time; I’ll wait because the wait has been a loyal friend. There are consequences when I haven’t been careful, or didn’t realize I needed to be careful in this way; hence the sparked intention of sacred carefulness unto myself, that I now carry as a beautiful burden to bear…For a while.

Sex & intimacy are powerful forces that can intertwine you with another in ways that benefit both on so many levels. To reiterate, intimacy does not have to include sexual intercourse; but it can be just as powerful. This is kind of random… Ok real random, but I know some like to engage in sexual orgies. No judgement here, but I’m curious… I would be very interested to know if those who engage have found these experiences to be healing or high vibing after the orgasms? What does it feel like emotionally and spiritually after everyone is done? Do you feel good about yourself and experience? Please school me on your experiences below if you feel comfortable. I’m not interested in joining one, but I do wonder if folks honestly feel it’s a beneficial experience after the climax?

If you exchange energy with someone who just takes from you, and replaces what they take with their Maliciously Low-Vibing Energy; imbalance is inevitable. I have found that Maliciously Low-Vibers often become the shot caller in the relationship and feel great, whilst I began to feel heavy, low, depressed. This sort of exchange, believe it or not, has made me want to stay when I know shouldn’t. Even when treated bad, or just not how I should be treated; I didn’t want to let go…Christians call this a “soul tie” which is very accurate—It’s as if subconsciously I wanted to hold on to what I gave away, which is why I felt I couldn’t let it go. Breaking free of this can take a while, and the healing even longer. It was a set back each time I let this happen to myself…There were signs, there was inner leading warnings, but I ignored those and became entangled in unbalanced energy, that I didn’t want to outright leave alone at first.This is my experience at least, and it took me a while to figure out that this is what was actually happening to me. Can anyone relate?

Sex and intimacy is beautiful…It is so much bigger than pleasure and procreation. We are beings who vibe around energy… We are energy. Energy frequency dictates whether we can be balanced to carry on our daily lives, and be in tune to receive what we must do in this life. Think about how job related relationships thrive off the right balance and exchange of energy…If that is easily seen, surely our more intimate exchanges need to be closely monitored by us, for us. If we protect our projects and business ventures from folks we don’t vibe with, why are we so careless with our more powerful intimate exchanges? Something to think about…

^{In Unashamed Négritude & Revolutionary Love,}

^ORIT

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The Intention-Spirituality-Energy of a BLACK Radical Woman in 2017

It’s the Gregorian New Year: 01/01/2017! If you are reading this you’ve made it, and that matters because today wasn’t promised to any of us. 2016 will go down as one of the most hexed years of our collective existence, and certainly the crux of a lot of bad shit became more intensified and/or grew roots of deeper proportions. It’s as if everything we thought couldn’t get worse did so, whilst tauntingly saying: “Trick!”—Perpetually proving its true intent. Everyone who we never imagined would betray us ( BLACK People) not only did so, but in process upped their own ante of a knee-growism, that is unfathomable and sickening.  A great host of folks who brought Light into this world left us on time, but seemingly too soon… Some left us suddenly and/or tragically, and some even left us on purpose due to being tired of being here. So much has happened that can cause not only angst, but also an understandable pessimism; it has been all encompassing. And yet, from the depths of my soul and the steady cadence of my heartbeat: I feel LIGHT… 

The LIGHT of my CREATOR, my MASHIACH, my Ancestors; this LIGHT permeates through me, reassures me; I know great things not yet seen are on the horizon. If you know me, my intense need for truth and realistic expectation, is conjoined to my extreme sensitivity and yielding to the Spiritual. This is why I CAN keep going…Being able to see things in a reality that far surpasses my limited logic; this keeps me steady. Yes, such a connection, such a continuous Spirituality surrounding; it gives me life everlasting that seeps into the right now. Time is illusion, and everything is possible— It ain’t over! This life journey, in this body, in this realm; great things will still find me, and everyone else they are destined to embrace.

The solar based Gregorian Calendar is the most widely used calendar in the world, but it is hardly the sole new year observance on our planet. There are various cultures that still keep time according to their more ancient traditions, and because of my cumulative cultural experience of who I is; I celebrate 2 lunar based new year observances within a Gregorian year… One includes a declaring of spring as the beginning of the physical new year, and the other in Autumn is the beginning of the spiritual new year. I also observe new moons, days of rest, the end of my menstrual cycle, and a few other important shifts in energy; synchronization with the earth and its relation to higher and the highest truths in the omniverse. I feel blessed that my life cycle and awareness thereof includes sacred ritual and observance; requiring that I start anew, refocus, reenergize, reassess, remember, rest; BALANCE.

2017 is a new beginning, and whether you believe in making resolutions or not, understand that everything you do this year will be wrapped around the intention and energy you give off. What does that mean for you as an individual, as a friend, as a family member, as a community member, as the exhalations of the Ancestors? Does it mean anything at all? How can you treat yourself and others better without compromising either? How can you deconstruct meanness and nastiness from your daily dealings? Are you desiring to be surrounded by the wrong people? Surely, what we put out comes back to us, so we must be careful, so much more careful about what we say and what seeds we plant into our own soil & the soil of others.

As for me, I am a BLACK Radical Woman…As much warrioress as I am healer and creator. This interesting concoction of innate being and calling, has oft been hard for me to balance. I’ve always felt like my Ancestors are purposely and perpetually hyping me up (smile)—I am ready to go and get at tyranny when that righteous raging boldness fills my body and soul, and sometimes it is so much bigger than me, which leaves me fearless and active. I also want to assist & nurse everyone and everything around me; giving balm to the broken and hurting spaces I see in others… I love people, and have a tender heart which moves me to action, even when I am very low in spirit myself. But don’t get it twisted, I also don’t play games. I have a low tolerance for all bull shittery in every form and way. All of this is engulfed, and often riding the waves of my creativity and various expressions of artistry. 

It wasn’t until the beginning of 2016 that I realized that the warrioress and healer were not in opposition, but rather intimate bosom buddies, that in my case, couldn’t be separated from one another… Both speaking revolutionary LOVE, just in different dialects. In order to be able to do healing work for myself and my communities, it was and still is my normal to: Fight against the spread of tyranny and its toxic exhaust, break fallow ground all around, and get rid of every weed I possibly can before planting or watering seeds—Having the CREATOR bless those seeds at the appointed time to become the healing we all can benefit from. When serving, it was and still is my normal to adorn myself with a “Fuck the system and police” mantle in order to protect the seeds I plant or water; that need to be able to continue to grow without disturbance…There are no contradictions, all is needed. There was and is nothing wrong with the most tender parts of myself being open, watching, listening, willing. There was and still is nothing wrong with the most militant parts of myself protecting and clearing the way for that process. All of this is my normal, but balance sure hasn’t always been…I am forever learning and relearning balance.

It has always been so easy for me to stay in situations longer than I should because I feel for people, or allow myself to be disrespected in movement spaces, in order to move toward a bigger “ultimate goal” of liberation—I now realize that few had/have vision or desire to attain a real all encompassing freedom for BLACK People. Many were and are only concerned with uplifting themselves on the backs of the community, rather than being a part of a collective uplifting that benefits everyone. 

Early on in 2016, I realized I had to start to detox myself from these situations; enough was enough. I began to become way more choosy about who I interlock my energy with in freedom work… In my personal life too! I began to stop over exerting myself, stop joining reactionary efforts, and I began to cut toxic people and spaces from my life…A pruning I am still working at whenever I am made aware i’ve missed a spot. ‘Cause honey, being a martyr to my people, when I am still needed here on the planet: To be healthy, to be whole, and to be ready to finish all the work my journey requires of and from me; that imbalance just couldn’t be a thing in my life anymore. BALANCE is the glue that keeps everything in it’s rightful lane, keeps giving souls sane, and allows inward listening to have a clear channel to guide rightly.

Through and despite all the roughness of 2016 in my personal and community life, I have come to grasp a deeper assurance of how to balance, and how to see myself rightly in the midst of my purpose as an individual, and as a member in the collective. I am grateful for growth, and I am grateful that the soil of my being is better prepared for even more fruitful growth. I do not see myself separate from my people. I instead honor the fact that the who that I AM is not supposed to be the who that YOU ARE…We are all supposed to be our authentic selves, and bring all of that beautiful nuance into the storehouses of our collective consciousness and community building—Growing, learning, amending, protecting, dismantling, LOVING…Liberation apart from these choice fruits is impossible, but it is not impossible if we truly want to break free and thrive.

I am a BLACK Radical Wombman, who is a Womanist by innate design. I am personally so tired of us as nuanced BLACK Peoples not wanting to attain a unity that will lead to liberation. I understand that we have so many intra-communal problems, and I also understand that our social justice spaces are so filled with contradiction, that they have become very toxic as well. Homophobia, Transphobia, Misogynoir, Hush Culture, Misandry, Elitism, Clique Mentality and so many other issues plague our community. And yes, I understand the effects of white supremacy on us, how every persons toxicity levels and response thereof vary…However, we have to be self-determining in healing our people. No one else will do it for us, nor should we want them to do that which they are ill-equipped. They can pay reparations, but they cannot heal us; remember this.

The problem I see with our people here in Amerikkka and how we deal with one another; no one wants to listen, no one wants to adjust. Western culture teaches everyone to be selfish and unapologetic about the wrong we do to others. This is reinforced in everything from government to entertainment… Even our “woke” spaces are oft contaminated by this same mentality, because the people within are conditioned by this society—Little effort goes into decolonizing of the mind, heart, soul, spirit through cultural education and empowerment. If the folks in “woke” spaces that are supposed to be leading the community to be engaged to fight systemic oppression, if they display the same systemic societal ills on folks in our community that don’t align with them… Disguising these ills as virtuous and permissible emissions through “they’re wrong, we’re right… they’re bad, we’re good” group think mentality…How is that leadership? How are you gonna guide the rest of the community who are uninformed or bigoted through ignorance to be better and learn better? Wait, but is that your goal…To not compromise marginalized people and issues, whilst being a living embodiment of those truths to the people? If not, why are you in freedom work? Do you only want people just like you free or all BLACK People? Are you willing to not only state a standard, but live it? Are you willing to be the first partaker of doing the right thing, because you can see what others aren’t yet able? Will you humble yourself? Way too many too easily say: “Fuck You!” to whichever group they don’t like or that has disrespected them, when in many(not all) cases that write-off is premature… BLACK Liberation that doesn't minimize the pain and struggle of others in our community; it must include all BLACK People or you simply don’t want it. 

 Folks want to “critique” and feel their designations immune them from being critiqued back… “Critique” to sound off, without the intention of hearing anyone opposite their opinion… “Critique” but not wanting to dialogue—These are not real critiques by the way, they are narrative control actions of emotionally immature individuals within the collective, who gang up with one another on every side of an argument; meanwhile we aren’t getting free, and it’s so frustrating! Some days I literally feel like giving up, but I do not see myself separate from my people(s) so I just can’t and my inner guidance won’t allow it.

In the case of white supremacy, we must protect ourselves and fight to control our narratives; we owe it and those who benefit from it nothing—This isn’t, however, the way for us to deal with one another as BLACK People toward BLACK People. I understand we can’t work with certain people in our community because they are utter trash, but most of our division is based off disrespect and unbalanced ego that leads to an unrelenting unhinged pride; devoid of revolutionary love, highest truths, and willingness to find a way that isn’t exclusionary. We must find ways to unite around what we have in common, and respect one another’s beautiful differences. The only differences we can’t tolerate are ones that keep us espoused to white supremacy, or anything else harmful to us as a people.…That can no longer be an option.

I now realize that so many do not want unity where it can be found, but rather want to stay divided…Some folks get high off conflict, and some peoples entire personalities and come ups are based off of them being angry. Do not get me wrong, anger is a beautiful expression, yes I said beautiful; yet it is only effective and beneficial in these sorts of situations if it is accompanied by right heart set and wisdom. Otherwise anger becomes a narcotic… Those who dish it out, and those who feed off of it become addicted to its intensity devoid of purpose—Some don’t want to stop getting high even when there is opportunity.

There are folks in our community who don’t believe in or accept crucial parts of individuals, which is hella problematic. Folks who demean same sex relationships, folks who demean Abrahamic Faiths, folks who demean single mothers, folks who demean men as all not being shit, folks who demean women as thots and whores sans the men they have relationships with, folks who demean those who choose no form of religion or spirituality, folks who demean folks for so many random things that isn’t anyones business; this prevails amongst us, and of course it is personal and hurtful.

Truth is, we are not going to be close to everybody in our community, but we should have a basic love that says I will look out and fight for you to BE and thrive. There will always be things about people that are not liked by others, and individually we have a right to say who we do and who we do not allow into our close circles…By the way, the difference between a circle and clique is that a circle fosters LOVE, growth, doesn’t envy and protects. Cliques are made of petty people who decide who it is and isn’t acceptable to shit on, a faux love and acceptance based off insecurity…But I digress.

Thing is, every oppressed and/or stereotyped group within our BLACK communities have systems of oppression within them, if we’re willing to be honest—There are levels upon levels of oppression, and we only choose to see and call out certain ones. A few examples: Within LGBT circles, bisexuals are treated like shit. Within Feminist & Womanist circles, clique culture and hatertaion is all  around. Within conscious circles, cult like allegiance toward leaders who abuse in various ways, and the demeaning of Women & LGBT is prevalent. So for how long are we going to keep doing this shit? There is a standard we have to set within our communities that far surpasses the standards of the oppressor.

I get that not everyone can or wants to come into the promise land, but I KNOW we have not made the proper effort to do what we can, to facilitate between those who have the heart to amend, humble themselves, and do right by each other. I have been searching my depths, because I realize that we are past a state of emergency, we are truly in stagnantly stale waters…So far away from getting to fresh water, that we are dangerously dehydrated and wasting away.

So what do I propose we do to begin to find those who we can work with all across the board? I propose we need a new beginning in the form of all inclusive reconciliation ceremonies, both locally & then nationally as well. I am not talking about a march, or another capitalistic driven event… I am talking a meaningful kickstart to the work we need to focus on in our communities every single day. I am talking about us mourning what we have lost together, acknowledging what we have done to one another, listening to the needs of each group, and the actions each group needs the community of willing souls  to make happen in order for us to unify, so that we can whoop white supremacy’s ass!!!! BLACK Women, BLACK Men, Non-Identifying, Youth, LGBT, Religious, Spiritual, etc…All the bad shit we have done to one another needs to be expressed by those done wrong, and acknowledged by those who have participated whether knowingly or unknowingly. We need to not only apologize for what we have done, but we must also make amends. We must also acknowledge marginalized folks who have had an even tougher road within our communities. In our communities, BLACK Men have male privilege, and that still does not mean they do not have issues of how they have been hurt within our community… Many things and people intersect all over the place.  Any space where BLACK Men are not allowed to also speak their heart will not be a true space of healing. This can’t and won’t be a space of arguing, but of true reconciliation. It should only include those from our community who are mature, humble, and ready to begin this process…If you think it’s bullshit, then by all means don’t stop others from building and beginning a healing process…We have to start somewhere, right?

Perhaps this process should start with a delegation of sound minded, truly revolutionary Love filled individuals (unbought and unsold grassroots folk); to come together from every group/marginalization, and mark out the legit concerns of everyone. We need to get this organized and actualized, without incorporating opportunists just because they have visibility…We can’t trust a pure work to horrible hearted and self-serving people. Our unity is what white supremacy fears most, and we have skin folk who purposely disrupt our movements toward unity in various ways. These are just basic ideas, but we need to do something, and rightly so… Quickly but thoroughly. What are your ideas? How could we maybe actualize and further brainstorm this starter concept?

This would be a wonderful start to a sustainable unity, but none of us have to wait for an event, though I believe the ritual would be important.  Change starts with us as individuals and spreads from there. Why not start today, on this Gregorian New Year? How can you as an individual deconstruct toxicity in your mind and heart toward people in our community…Are you willing? How can you spread your awareness to others, and then mobilize it? All of us, and I mean all of us; we have work to do; both individual and communal! Some have more than others, but another persons work load does not exempt any of us from the fact that we have plenty of work to do on our own…Are we willing? As for me, I am willing to do what must be done to be an embodiment of revolutionary LOVE in the earth…I want to grow, amend, be good to myself & to others without compromise…I want to fulfill my purposes in this life, and plant seeds that grow into beautiful plants that will sustain generations to come. How about you?

A blessed & right energy driven Gregorian New Year to you all!

^{In Unashamed Négritude & Revolutionary Love,}

^ORIT

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